So with all this cleaning i've been doing i unearthed the property taxes. The last time i looked at it was a quick glance to see the due date which i thought was sometime in September. I thought wow that's along ways away...and didn't think anything of it until yesterday when i was cleaning the office/library and looked at it in more detail and saw the first installment was due the beginning of June and the second is due in September. So i'm freaking out about this, if i'm going to pay it all at once when is it due? I kinda figured September but i wasn't sure and was kicking myself for not taking care of it earlier. So yesterday i was all i'm going to take care of that tomorrow! Fast forward to "tomorrow" about 4:25 in the afternoon i go into the office/library to organize my cds and i find the taxes sitting there. I run out of the house and to the bank where it said i could pay them. I get there she says that they are late and i would have to go to the court house to get them taken care of. I ask her when they close....and of course its 4:30. So i rush down town and get there about 5 minutes after they close. Not that it really mattered anyway because if its late it's late there's nothing i could do about it. I just wanted to get it taken care of so i would stop freaking out about it when i thought about it which apparently is not that often considering today. UGH.

So I emailed the secretary at West and asked her if she got my information about the media specialist job. She said yes but that they do not have my media specialist endorsement on file. I told her that the job posting only said teaching certificate so that's why I applied. So blah. I have no idea what's going to happen there.

Boombah has not contacted me at all. I emailed my resume about a month ago and i emailed the warehouse manager that I was no longer in school and gave him my personal email instead of my work email. Not that i necessary want to start working tomorrow i just want the sigh of relief that i have a job come August or whenever. Its kinda hard to enjoy my summer when all my brain does is think job, job, need a job, need a job....I have been able to get a lot of work done around the house but i look around and still feel overwhelmed by all the stuff i want to get done. Get rid of pond, New garage, New driveway, New fence, get rid of the ground ivy somehow, new front porch stairs, maybe new gutters, and that's just outside, not to mention the inside patch small holes in the walls and miscellaneous other things around here. So overwhelmed. Right now mostly i've been digging out and rearranging what i have. Trying to find places for pictures and I guess overall its called "nesting" I know i should be enjoying it and i kinda do but still my brain keeps chanting about the job. I'm like in this constant state of agitation on the inside. Very unsettling.

So I did some looking today I found a Career Center Aide position at Minooka High school and a Guidance secretary at Yorkville Middle School. Which i think would be different enough to get me thinking what i like and don't like so i can focus on what i want to do. So i'm going to apply for those positions, but i wonder what they see when they look at my resume. I just feel ignored when i fill out their applications online, i guess i should take the next step and call and follow up but ugh, i hate selling myself and that's what it feels like i'm doing. That whole situation the interview and looking for a job and everything that goes along with it, i hate it. barf.  Granted i was not happy at my last job, but the reason i stayed there so long was because i was avoiding this whole looking for a job situation and i was comfortable, comfortably miserable. I am glad i don't have to think about going back there cause I don't know what i'd do. 

Okay i think i'm feeling better now. Thank you for reading/listening. =)