So results are finally in on my Nana. She has lung cancer that spread to a spot on her brain. They are going to start radiation on her brain to try and shrink it then move on to her lungs. It sucks but her and my mom's relationship is better than it has ever been in their entire life. Nana would verbally abuse my mom and was just plain mean to her for no reason. Now it's like nothing ever happened like that. Its strange, but good.

On the job front. I had my last evaluation from the other lady. Her concern was that when the students were working in groups the students i was working with were focused and attentive but all the other groups were off task and having inappropriate conversations. She was also concerned that we keep having the same conversations and i haven't seemed to be growing. I told her how i've been struggling with not being happy and that i think it's the age group. She told me that i'm a very good teacher and that if she could she would want me to teach her kids and she doesn't tell everyone that. That is just not the age group for me. She gave me some good advice and told me that she would help me in any way she could. So i asked her if i would be asked back next year, on my cover of my evaluation its' marked unsatisfactory. She said that she did not know if i would be asked back but as soon as she hears anything she would let me know. They are getting rid of 2 biology teachers, so i'm probably going to be one of them. I really don't see how they could keep me. My parents don't want me to leave there until i have something lined up because they hear horrier stories of the job shortage. If i come home in the evening and some evenings i hope that something catastrophic happens in the world so that i don't have to go back to work in the morning, i don't think that's the place for me. 

This reminds me of a dream i had during the summer, it was that i was fired. At first i was sad then i had this overwhelming feeling of relief. I kinda have that feeling of relief again because i don't have to go back there next summer, i can find something that will make me happy, hopefully. So now i'm looking for a middle school science teaching job. I found two in seneca and i'm going to send my information to them at the end of the week when i have all my letters in a row. Wish me luck!