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Lyrics to The Aspidistra Flies :
All the umbrellas in London
Couldn't hide my love for you
All the rain on Thamesside
Couldn't stop shining through
I dreamt of you last night
Lying next to me in blue
All the umbrellas in London
Couldn't hide my love for you
Run to the window and call out my name
We'll meet where the sun goes to hide from the rain
From the rain, from the rain
All the umbrellas in London
Couldn't hide my love for you
When everyone else is hiding
Rainy Sundays drunk at two
You'll whisper sweet lies to me
And one of them will be true
All the umbrellas in London
Couldn't hide my love for you
The gloom of the city at evening is still
You whisper come to me
And I always will
Always will, always will
All the rain in this town
And still the sky is blue
Saint James Square is teeming with doves
And that sunset they flew
Across the darkening city
To an attic room for two
All the umbrellas in London
Couldn't hide my love for you
I counted all the lights
They don't shine as bright
They don't pierce the night like you do
Like you do, like you do
Like you do, like you do
- Mood:
happy - Music:Stars, The Aspidistra Flies
If i'm not making much sense it's cause i'm tired and my head hurts and it's hard to make a string of words make sense like i want them to.
Speaking of head aches. I do not have health insurance. I have not had health insurance since August. This scares me, a lot, so i try not to think about it. It's not like i haven't tried to get health insurance either. I filled out the paper work with blue cross blue shield of il and they rejected me. I sent them an appeal with a dr's note from my chiropractor and they rejected me again because I was attending a chiropractor for mantainence for my whiplash that happened when i was like 10. I haven't gone to the chiropractor since for 2 months now. I've been doing pretty good and haven't been getting many head aches. With this job that I just got at Boombah after 4 months I will be able to get health insurance I'll have to pay which is fine but at least they can't deny me.Then after a year it is free. Andy is going to try and get me on his plan until I can get my own. Ugh just so annoying.
So I work at Boombah starting tomorrow. I'm nervous cause it's new and I don't know what to expect. I know that it won't be as stressful as my last job and that I won't have to take work home, which will be nice. At least i know most of the people that work there already. =)
Ugh tired.
- Mood:
tired
Speaking of sewing I got a call from Andy this morning asking me to send Matthias (guy that works at Boombah) my resume because they will be needing pressers in a few weeks. I then find out that they think i would be a better fit in the embroidery department. I really don't care as long as I have a job.
I've been kinda holding my breath and just waiting wondering what I am going to do. I've subbed a whole 1 time. (I'm scheduled to sub tomorrow, a whole 2 times in about 2 months of school. Not a reliable income) So i was kinda waiting until January when Boombah might call and looking on the internet for jobs in the area to apply to. I feel so lost and uncertain. Andy says that I'm definetly going to get hired there, I just hope it all works out cause i'm tired of the lost and uncertain feelings and some money would be nice. I miss getting pay checks.
Looks like all the limbs are staying attached so far, but it appears that Wally has the taste for Moose this evening. Hopefully the stitches hold!
Now for something completely different:
Oh something else I wanted to mention. Okay I was in my friend Chrissy's wedding and her cousin was the maid of honor. Her cousin got my cell number and friended me on facebook to keep in touch with me through the whole bachelorette party, bridal shower, wedding etc. Sunday i'm messing around on facebook as i'm apt to do cause I have no life and I notice that my friend level when down from 110 to 109. Someone unfriended me! I then wondered if i would even notice who it was that unfriended me. I looked through the existing friends and I was able to notice. Chrissy's cousin's name was gone. Granted we really don't share many similarities except for Chrissy. But it was weird cause I remember reading her status in my news feed that same day. I was all upset about finding this discovery which i know was silly. I told Andy and he was all you didn't even really like her to begin with. Which i realize but you see...everyone is supposed to love me. Everyone is motivated by something in life. For Andy it's praise, for me it's that everyone must love/like me. So i was rather upset that she had unfriended me and i'm very curious to the reason why. I told Chrissy all about this, i think she may ask her about it.
- Mood: hopeful
- Music:Red Hot Chilly Peppers, Universally speaking
So my brother called me today with some horrible news. They chose someone else for the job. The job that he thought he had they just had to do background check and such is gone. They called today and said that they went with someone else. Andy thinks that they gave it to some relative of someone that works there. The job was for a computer lab aide at Carl Sandburg HS in Orland Park. I was so happy for him thinking that his life would be able to start, he'd be earning money making a living. But no, crushed. I hope he is able to find something else soon.
In other news, I have not heard back from Boombah yet. I"m hoping to by the end of the week.
- Mood:
sad - Music:i'll back you up, Dave Matthews Band
So I walk in he looks over my resume with me asked if i was currently working and says so you were a biology teacher, what school did you go to ...st. francis... Says this is a little different from teaching why would you want a job here besides getting paid. (mutual smile and laugh)
I said I would like a job with less stress than teaching.
He asked me if i knew what Boombah was about. I said you sell softball uniforms.
He asked if i knew anyone that worked there. I said my husband, Oh who's your husband...er Andy Clark. Oh Andy...I thought you looked familiar, (i could see him turning a little red, i can't believe he didn't know that I was Andy's wife. and later he asked if we were married.....hmmm,) he asked if i had met him at bowling....could have don't remember.
So then he explained what I would be doing there. I would be entering inventory, they need someone reliable to enter the inventory coming in and I mentioned to him that, that is similar to entering grades and that was actually the part of teaching that I enjoyed. He asked if it was the kids i didn't like, i told him it was the classroom management, he asked what grade I taught, Freshman, he understood how that would be difficult.
He also said i may be moved around doing different tasks when it is slow which is fine with me. He didn't want someone that would then complain "this isn't what i was hired for and etc".
He also said that there are a lot of people that work there that have family members working there also and if you have a problem with something, I am to go to him. He is my boss. I am not to go to my significate other in a different department and complain to them and then they complain to a different department and then he is the last to hear about it. He said he talked a lot about that because it has happened frequently.
But besides that they are a very teamwork oriented business and he wants someone that would say what ever is best for the company and not complain. He said they want to get as big as Nike or Underarmer. He also asked if i would want to go back to teaching I said not for a while.
I asked him about benefits. After 4 months they will pay half and then after a year they pay all. He said he liked the data entry on my resume.
He asked my age, which i was a little taken back about but told him. He said so your wild years are over (wild years? I don't think i had wild years) and you're like me settling down and focusing on your goals. That's when he asked if i was married and saw my ring and said he should have known, I told him that Andy doesn't wear his ring so that might be why he didn't know he was married. He said that he wasn't a ring guy either.
He said that he knows people in interviews don't like to ask about price. But he said that the price will not stay the same. Depending on the season, and how good a job I do it can change. He told me it was $10. Is that what i was expecting. I said yes i knew that was how much but that the other jobs that i've been looking at have been $9, $10 and they were farther away, not in Morris, and then he was like oh you live in Morris, oh i see here...(looks at resume, see's street name) So this job would be close to home for you.
He said that he was interested in me and that he will interview a few more to get a sample size and he will let me know in a week or so.
So there it is. I can't believe that he did not know that I was Andy's wife...similar last names? I'm not sure how he still has my resume if i sent it in May and he put an ad in the paper recently and had a small pile of them. He also mentioned that some of the resumes he was looking at were people saying that had like 25 years warehouse experience and that they are going to be expecting a certain wage, that they are not going to be able to give them, he said he doesn't put the wage on the ads in the newspaper because of that.
Also when i mentioned that Andy was my husband he said well you won't be working with him, which is good, and that his wife works in another department in Boombah. And that it didn't mean we couldn't go out to lunch or drive in together.
When i was leaving he said that maybe he should do more research on the people he's interviewing. I think he was a little embarrassed about not remembering I was Andy's wife.
I guess Andy saw me leaving Tony's office, i felt like a bobble head in there, just nodding to everything he said, which there was nothing else i could do. And there were windows so i felt like people were watching me. I'm sure I did fine. I hope I get a call soon! I should have asked about dress attire but i think i can get that info from Tim....oh and what are the hours.
- Mood: hopeful
- Music:Not your lover, Blizen Trapper
So she then called me the next day telling me that she had called her Dad to tell him about the thing being in her class. He was laughing while she was talking to him and said it wasn't his problem. My cousin went on to say something along the lines of if you had not screwed her she wouldn't be my problem either but you did. He told her that she's 18 she should be mature enough to deal with her being in her class. Apparently this chicky is going to school to be a teacher and so is my cousin. My cousin said that she heard from someone that Chicky was bragging at the bar that she works at that she and my cousin were going to be in the same class. My uncle and his chicky knew about it before hand and did not tell my cousin. How could you do that to your child? Apparently because of something to do with the divorce my Uncle get's my cousin's schedule. So they gave it to him as soon as she got it, so my uncle and his chicky knew about 2 months before that my cousin was going to be in one of her classes. Such a horrible coincidence.
Story 2. Yesterday I went with my Mom while my Nana was getting Chemo because I hadn't visited my Nana in a while and was curious to see what the whole chemo thing was about and being unemployed I had some time to kill. So while she was getting examed by the doctor before her chemo, she was in a very silly spunky mood. When the doctor was using the tongue depressor in her mouth to look around she kept talking and trying to ask questions about what he saw and was chewing on the tongue depressor. She told him that he should have chocolate tongue depressors. Then when he was knocking on her back checking for fluid she said "come in." As if someone was knocking on the door, my mom and were trying to suppress the laughing, but she was being so goofy. Later while she is sitting getting her chemo she says what she wants to take us out to eat at a chiniese restaurant. I was all excited, she proceeds to ask if i've been to the restaurant across from Kmart in Joliet. The place she was talking about was this horrible restaurant that Andy and I and Five and River had eaten at. The place had actually angered me. I was so hungry and excited to eat dinner, the food was so terrible that i felt like I wasted a good eating opportunity. Anyway the place was gone (thank goodness) and a wings place was going in there. I broke the news to her and she was like oh but the food was so good. She kept talking about how good the food was and wouldn't quite believe me that it was gone. After chemo my grandfather drove us to the restaurant covered in Wing of America Coming soon signs. The signs did not convince my grandmother that the chinese restaurant was gone. My grandfather had to go in and talk to someone for my grandmother to realize it was gone. I look over at my mom and she just shrugs and lays her head back on the seat. We went to Buffet King instead. Nana tried some sushi, I found out that my grandmother and I both really like Lomein, and I discovered that my slow selective/eating comes from my grandfather. I look over at him eating his brownie covered in ice cream and sprinkles and he scoops up some sprinkles and some ice cream then some brownie and sprinkles and so on. That is exactly how I eat a salad. I want this piece of lettuce with that tomato and this carrot :take bite. So I got that from my mom which got it from her dad. ::waves hand:: the more you know.
Random Notes: My brother has an interview for a IT assistant at Lemont High school today. Wishes him well. This is his first job interview because he has never had a job ever. Have I mentioned that?
Still have not heard anything about jobs i applied for last week. I hope i hear something today. =(
- Mood:
restless - Music:I predict a riot, Kaiser Cheifs
After the walk I decided I was going to take a bath in the downstairs bathroom. I left the bathroom door open a crack so that the animals could roam freely. I have no qualms about animals seeing me naked people on the other hand....Wally was very entertained by me being in the bath tub and even tried to help me out by licking my shoulder. My clothes were in a pile on the floor and he grabbed my underwear and ran out of the room. Lacey liked underwear too, I don't understand it. Wally will dig in the basket of dirty clothes and pull out underwear take it out and just go and sit on it or with it and cuddle it...He looked so funny doing it. He is now passed out on the kitchen floor laying on his back for all to see. Cute little guy!
Still no word on the job front. No Sub calls. No calls about the 7-10 jobs I applied for last week. Keeps fingers crossed, hope I heard something this week.
- Mood:
okay - Music:Falling or Flying, Grace Potter
Oh my gosh a plan! Okay so even though I don't really care for subbing (The uncertainty of am I going to have to work tomorrow...getting that call....What am i going to have to teach?....Am i going to understand the sub plans? What if kids misbehave? What do I do? What do I do if this or that happens?....So much uncertainty) I think with having the plan in mind it will help. And it will be in Morris, which is not that far away and much much much different from Joliet i'm sure (at least i hope so) . Oh i just feel so much better. It makes sense this is something I can do and it can work.
::SIGH::: :::BARF:::
Now if the principal will just call me back so i can figure out what i can do to be all registered to be a sub there. That would be great!!
- Mood:
nervous - Music:How great is our God, playing in my head...
So I had been hoping to get a job back at the animal hospital where I used to work considering that i have not heard from any of the education jobs that i have applied for or from Boombah. So I called Ann that works there and set up a meeting to just talk about hours and price and see if it is worth it. Well I kinda worked it up in my head that no matter what i would take it cause its a job and this is the only definite job possibility that i have gotten. I am looking for a temporary job where i can work get paid and figure out what i want to go back to school for either Librarian in a School or a School Counselor. So had the meeting yesterday.
It started out all good. I would be answering phones, entering people's information in the computer, greeting people, weighing animals, helping with surgery in back, filling prescriptions. All of it sounded fun and i was excited to have the chance to do those things because when i worked there before i was stuck in back cleaning and i thought that the receptionists were high up there cause they did everything up front. So after that we started talking about hours. There are 2 other receptionists that work there. They like to have 2 people working up front as much as possible and it looks like i would mostly be working afternoon’s evenings and 2 Saturdays a month. But the last thing that we came up with that she needs to check is working 10-6 MTF 4-9 Th and then the 2 Saturdays a month 9-1. Now the hours are not definite. I know from working there before even though they say they close at 6 they can see appointments until like 7..8..9..at night depending on the severity of the animals. And that's just appointments then I would have to go over messages with the Drs and call the messages back so leaving there at like 10 or 11 on that Thursday would not be out of the question. So there would always be the possibility for overtime. Also on those MTF when i would be leaving there would be another person there so that i wouldn't have to close and stay all night I could hopefully leave at 6. So with all that said she then told me about how much receptionists start at. $9...$9.50. ICK! UGH. I was hoping for like around $12. She said that she gets paid pretty crappy and if she didn't have all the overtime she would not be able to afford her house. And she's been there for like 10 years and does everything there. We left with her checking and talking to Dr to see if paying me more was an option and if the last hours she suggested to me would work. Did i mention that the office is in New Lenox....around 35minutes away...
So after there I left and went to my parents house. Told my dad about it first he said it didn't sound too bad for a temporary job while i go back to school to have some income coming in. I told my mom, she made a face at the price. They both think that he should be able to do at least $10. Totaling up the hours of working and with that pay...I would only be pulling in about $1000 a month, only $12,000 a year. It then hit me. I will not be able to make anywhere near to what i was making as a teacher. I was SO proud, even though the job sucked and i was a stressed mess, I was so proud to say that I made about $50 thousand a year, it was pretty much the only confidence the job gave me. And now i feel crushed, almost worthless. Granted if i went back to school and got a job as a Counselor or Librarian i would be making something close to that or more, but that seems so far away. And maybe i think that i should just suck it up and be a teacher even though its so much work and I wasn't really happy, and I didn't feel I was any good because its good money. (not that i could cause there are no jobs around morris for science teachers).
Okay...so my parents were okay with it...temporary job...making money while going back to school...I get home and I talk to Andy about it crappy hours....crappy pay. He thought the $9.50 was insulting and that it wasn't worth taking with the wear on the car with all the miles they should at least pay me $11 dollars an hour before i consider it. He also said that I should talk to other people before I make my final decision. He thinks i can find a job around Morris that pays more. He suggested Sylvan Learning Center a tutoring place in town. (Which i applied for a center instructor in Morris, but they want people in math, reading, writing, algebra, ACT prep, and study skills, I don't know if i'm qualified exactly) But I think any job that I apply for they will see my education and say i'm over qualified. I think that's why the education jobs i've been applying for have not contacted me because they see my experience and education and think well she won't want to stay here long and don't go any further. Granted it would be temporary but 3-4 years temporary. (or longer if i have kids, which kids is a huge just UGH!!!! I don't even wanna think about cause, yes i want them but I need an income and then they'll need a place to stay while I work, just...:::Boom:: Head explodes, i'm wondering where they will fit into my life)
One wonderful thing that has happened is that Andy has gotten a huge freakin raise. He is making about as much as I was making as a teacher. That has eased my mind some, and helps me to breath a little easier when it comes to this whole job, money situation.
So it comes down to I'm not sure if I should take this animal hospital job, even though it is a definite job and a job that I would have to learn but I know would be fun and exciting. I'm not sure if something will come around that is better pay and closer to home. What do you think I should do? What would you do?
Also all you unemployed people out there how are you looking for jobs? I've used craigslist, monster, chicagojobs and I'm just not finding anything. Or are there just no jobs out there to find?
- Mood: depressed
- Music:Consume Me, dc talk
So with all this cleaning i've been doing i unearthed the property taxes. The last time i looked at it was a quick glance to see the due date which i thought was sometime in September. I thought wow that's along ways away...and didn't think anything of it until yesterday when i was cleaning the office/library and looked at it in more detail and saw the first installment was due the beginning of June and the second is due in September. So i'm freaking out about this, if i'm going to pay it all at once when is it due? I kinda figured September but i wasn't sure and was kicking myself for not taking care of it earlier. So yesterday i was all i'm going to take care of that tomorrow! Fast forward to "tomorrow" about 4:25 in the afternoon i go into the office/library to organize my cds and i find the taxes sitting there. I run out of the house and to the bank where it said i could pay them. I get there she says that they are late and i would have to go to the court house to get them taken care of. I ask her when they close....and of course its 4:30. So i rush down town and get there about 5 minutes after they close. Not that it really mattered anyway because if its late it's late there's nothing i could do about it. I just wanted to get it taken care of so i would stop freaking out about it when i thought about it which apparently is not that often considering today. UGH.
So I emailed the secretary at West and asked her if she got my information about the media specialist job. She said yes but that they do not have my media specialist endorsement on file. I told her that the job posting only said teaching certificate so that's why I applied. So blah. I have no idea what's going to happen there.
Boombah has not contacted me at all. I emailed my resume about a month ago and i emailed the warehouse manager that I was no longer in school and gave him my personal email instead of my work email. Not that i necessary want to start working tomorrow i just want the sigh of relief that i have a job come August or whenever. Its kinda hard to enjoy my summer when all my brain does is think job, job, need a job, need a job....I have been able to get a lot of work done around the house but i look around and still feel overwhelmed by all the stuff i want to get done. Get rid of pond, New garage, New driveway, New fence, get rid of the ground ivy somehow, new front porch stairs, maybe new gutters, and that's just outside, not to mention the inside patch small holes in the walls and miscellaneous other things around here. So overwhelmed. Right now mostly i've been digging out and rearranging what i have. Trying to find places for pictures and I guess overall its called "nesting" I know i should be enjoying it and i kinda do but still my brain keeps chanting about the job. I'm like in this constant state of agitation on the inside. Very unsettling.
So I did some looking today I found a Career Center Aide position at Minooka High school and a Guidance secretary at Yorkville Middle School. Which i think would be different enough to get me thinking what i like and don't like so i can focus on what i want to do. So i'm going to apply for those positions, but i wonder what they see when they look at my resume. I just feel ignored when i fill out their applications online, i guess i should take the next step and call and follow up but ugh, i hate selling myself and that's what it feels like i'm doing. That whole situation the interview and looking for a job and everything that goes along with it, i hate it. barf. Granted i was not happy at my last job, but the reason i stayed there so long was because i was avoiding this whole looking for a job situation and i was comfortable, comfortably miserable. I am glad i don't have to think about going back there cause I don't know what i'd do.
Okay i think i'm feeling better now. Thank you for reading/listening. =)
- Mood: restless
- Music:Jars of Clay, Truce
"If a revolver was good enough for Indiana Jones," I said, "its good enough for me."
"He was a fictional character, Harry," Her mouth curved up in a small smile. "And he had a whip."
I eyed her.
Her eyes sparkled. "Do you have a whip, Dresden?"
I eyed her even more. "Murphy...are you coming on to me?"
Quote 2
"Where is your unit?" Murphy asked.
I waggled my eyebrows at her. "Right where its always been, dollface."
She made a noise that sounded like someone about to throw up.
I love the Murphy and Harry banter!
- Mood:
geeky - Music:Hoodoo, Muse
I've been so productive and its the 3rd day i've been on break. I'm going to list some of the things i did because i feel so satisfied i got them done: fertilized the lawn, mowed the lawn (Andy kinda helped), pulled weeds and spread mulch and placed rocks in the back yard, organized office closet, (now Andy has a place to hide, i mean put his warhammer crap, i mean stuff, so that it is less in the living room) I organized the stuff i took home from school and found places for the boxes, i worked on hobbies in the craft room, washed all my sheets, quilts, blankets anything that had to do with my bed, cleaned bathrooms, washed the shower curtain in the washing machine (this really pleased me for some reason...)i think thats about it, and i have so much more to do!
So on the job front i've decided i'm going to wait and if i don't hear anything from JTHS by the end of next week I'll email boombah and be like remember me? You got any jobs laying around that you might wanna give me? Okay time to get back to organizing the spare room!
- Mood:
chipper
I want to do something entirely different for a while. And perhaps go back to school and get my endorsement in library information specialist and become a school librarian eventually. I filled out an application at a yorkville animal hospital but that has been the extent of that. I'm torn with wanting my summer. ( i would like to fully unpack, hang pictures, put up curtains, get the house good and organized, set up the crafty room, print out all my wedding pictures put them in an album, make a huge collage of wedding photos) and wanting a job of some sort. I feel that if i don't take a job over the summer i may miss the opportunity. If Boombah is still busy in June I will try and work there. Hopefully if i can get a job there it's a flexible one where i only work like 4 days a week so i can do some of those things listed.
One of my biology teacher friends knows someone that works at the veterinary clinic in mokena/orland park area and i guess they are looking for people and they know about me. But its so far away from morris. With construction on 80 it takes me almost an hour to get home from Joliet, i can't imagine how long it would take to get home from there.
I guess if i don't find a job i can always substitute in the fall. Not that i really like doing that at all. I hate the uncertaintly of knowing if i have to work the next day and what i would be doing. I also hate how it's mostly discplining students. But the money's not too bad. Usually about $100 a day.
Ugh. I hate uncertainty. Well if you know of any jobs out there close to morris that you think i could do, let me know. =)
One thing i am grateful for is that Andy has a secure job with benefits. If that wasn't the case I would feel much worse about the situation.
- Mood:
uncomfortable
A few days later I look out there and they are playing with wiffle bats hitting a wiffle ball across the street. I called Andy and told him what they were doing and he said well tell them to get out of the yard. So i gathered up all my courage, which i don't know why it was so hard for me but it was, went and got the mail and said please get out of my yard and did a little hand motion like, go on, get! And they proceeded to stand in their front yard for like 15 minutes confused of what to do next because i ban them from using my yard again. (seriously park, down the street...not hard...) After that they continued to play catch kinda sorta in our yard, mostly staying on the sidewalk in front of our yard and closer to our neighbors then they were before. But still they suck and stray throws would still go near the house and when that would happen Andy would say....And your done. And then they would go back to their own yard. Or if Andy wasn't around i would go and sit on the porch and they would eventually move back to their own yard.
A few nights ago after Andy got home from work and had kicked them out of our yard again we heard a tapping at the front of the house. I had no idea what the sound was but Andy knew right away it was airsoft gun pellets hitting the house. He ran outside and found them a few houses down. I guess when he found them they tried denying it but Andy said your not stealthy and i'm not stupid. So there were 3 boys and they all had guns one of them was telling the truth and said that yes their were shooting at the roof of our house, and that the main boy(that lives across the street) said that we were mean because we wouldn't let them play in our yard. Andy told them i know your like 14 and think you have a right to other people's yards but you don't! (i think they are more 16ish) So he told the main kid to take him to his parents. He went and knocked on the door and the little girl that lives there answered (who lets their like 7 year old daughter answer the door at 8:30 at night??) Andy talked to the mom of the main kid and told her what happened and that they have been told to stop playing in our yard and they have not and if it continues that we will call the police and that he expects them to be punished for this. (while this is happening i'm watching from the library/office window) I guess in the middle of telling what happened Andy was like "hi i'm Andy we moved in across the street::shock hands::" then continued his rant. (i love my husband)
So that was Tuesday. They haven't been in our yard since, and they think that it hurts our feelings when they scream and yell noises as Andy enters the house. Oh i also heard the neighbor kid making fun of Andy's truck as he was leaving Wed. evening, he called it a rickety piece of junk, I was very surprised the kid didn't swear. Let's see so now we are onto yesterday, Thursday. They were playing catch in their own yard down the length of the street instead of across it like before. Andy had Tim over to play with the boffer weapons. When Tim got here Andy came around from the backyard carring his sheild and sword. The main kid's face dropped. His mouth was agape and he swung around and looked at the other kid. They then walked (still across the street) over trying to look into our back yard. I couldn't tell if they thought it was cool or if they thought that Andy is a big dork. After that they were riding their bikes in the alley behind the house getting a better look at the action. I guess they also went to the next street down and watched thinking they weren't being seen. I find this hilarious!! The look on that kids face was priceless. I'm thinking that eventually i many have the neighbor kids in my back yard getting lessons from Andy of how to make a boffer sword or something. HA! I'll keep you posted!
- Mood: pleased
- Music:A sorta Fairytale, Tori Amos
Until now. I took today off. Tomorrow is an sip day (late start) and on those days i usually have them watch a biology related movie so i figure i won't really be getting behind and what they are doing in class today is just reviewing their vocab words, and that i really didn't NEED to be there. It is awesome. I have already got so much done this morning. Unfortunately i did not get a very good night sleep (woke up pretty much every hour cause i was scared i wouldn't call before 6am) and because i was nervous about calling in at 5:30 in the morning and having to say i was taking a sick day. But i'm sure it will get easier. I mean i have 65 of them....there or only 40 some days left of school. I figure if i really don't need to be there to teach that day and i won't get too behind...great time to take off! I'll probably only use like 10 or so that's still 50 left for retirement if i do stay in the teaching field. I'm so glad i got over the martyr, lawful good, feeling that was holding me back from taking sick days. They are awesome! Okay back to cleaning/organizing the house!
- Mood:
calm
I found these at a little store in Morris. I wants them all!!! They are awesome!
- Mood:
giddy
Last week Friday i put in my letter of resignation. My evaluator/supervisor type person was like, are you sure? Are you sure about this? Do you have another job lined up? Which no i don't, but i wanna quit the gym. (reference from Friends)
I have a meeting with the Principal at 7 in the morning tomorrow, its to discuss next school year. When i got the email about it i figured that this was the sorry we don't want you to work here anymore meeting so that's why i put in the letter. I'm dreading it, i don't want to go especially so early in the morning. I hope i don't get upset during the meeting. bah, i hope its' quick and easy. dread dread dread...
Today was the spirit assembly. I participated in the staff cheer and even did a cart wheel at the end. I got a free shirt out of it. I'll find out tomorrow what my students thought about the assembly. The few i saw in the hall after the assembly said nice flip. The stupid students booed us though. jackasses.
I have an interview at Seneca Jr High during my spring break. I hope i feel happy about teaching by then and not bitter like i am now.
I finished the application for the library assistant job a week ago in Shorewood but haven't heard anything about it yet. =( I think that would be the right thing, i could go back to school get my counselor degree have some kids then go and be a school counselor. But i'm not sure what's in store with me. Still waiting.
My Nana was supposed to start chemo this week but she got sick and had a high temperature and was not able to start. My mom said she doesn't think she'll make it to chemo, she's so pessimistic. I think it comes from working at the hospital so long and seeing people hurt and dying from disease. She is kinda weak but her fever is going down.
It's awkward at school when teachers are like oh what room will you end up in next year? And i have to pretend that i'm going to be there. I don't really want to tell a lot of people yet, not till i have a plan.
I can't wait for spring break. It's the last week in March.
I was reminiscing the other day, I miss the weekends during college where Andy and I would hang out with his friends Friday night and then hang out with my friends Saturday night . I miss how it was a given that that's what we'd be doing. Even when nothing was specifically planned we would have fun hanging out and doing nothing. Stupid getting jobs and becoming an adult.
This song is in my head i think the lyrics are appropriate...
I'd like to wait, to see how things turn out,
If you apply some pressure,
I'd like to wait, to see how things turn out,
If you apply some pressure,
What happens when you lose every-thing,
you just start again,
you start all over again,
What happens when you lose every-thing,
you just start again,
you start all over again,
- Location:home
- Mood:
hungry - Music:maximo park, apply some pressure
Compensation: In accordance with the negotiated labor agreement.
Qualifications:
· High School Diploma
· 30 hours of college credits
· Such alternatives to the above qualifications as the Board may find appropriate and acceptable.
Performance Responsibilities: (Essential Duties)
· Prepare individual library schedule.
· Order and receive books selected for purchase by the librarian.
· Prepare and conduct library classes.
· Write notices to homeroom teachers and students concerning overdue books, and collects fines for such books.
· Make simple repairs on damaged books and sends more severely damaged books for repair to the LRC Director.
· Monitor attendance in the library and keeps attendance records.
· Ready books for reserve on teacher’s requests, and maintains the reserve shelf.
· Prepare current magazines for shelving and maintains the back number stacks.
· Responsible for the annual inventory of library materials and the preparation of lists of missing books and books to be
discarded. This information is sent to the LRC Director.
· Shelve incoming books.
· Oversee the general neatness and attractiveness of the library and its’ displays.
· Maintains current inventory of supplies and suggests items for acquisition as needed.
· Help students and teachers locate books, periodicals, reference materials and other instructional materials.
· Read to all classes (in elementary buildings)
· Responsible for maintaining proper student discipline in the LRC.
· Inventory and maintain AV equipment and distributes equipment to the staff.
· Locate materials using the on-line computer catalog.
· Check books in/out on the computer.
· Attend all LRC staff meetings.
· Refer requests for Inter-library loan requests to the district LRC Director and responsibility for distribution of books to the teacher and the return of the books to the LRC Director.
· Perform such other tasks as the LRC Director may, from time to time, assign.
I can do all those things, and would enjoy doing them. Granted the pay would be lots less but still, it would be like a breath of fresh air, and i could have time to go back to school and get my degree in counseling or library science if i so choose. It just sounds so awesome. Only thing is they want some one now. I was thinking if they really wanted me how it would be if i left my job now...probably not smart. But if they really wanted me would they wait till next year? Who knows they would probably think i'm over qualified or something. Both Andy and my Mom said to fill out the application so i am in the process of doing that. Takes forever, but at least i'll be in the system for Science teacher there too. Ugh i just want it so much!
- Mood: worried
On the job front. I had my last evaluation from the other lady. Her concern was that when the students were working in groups the students i was working with were focused and attentive but all the other groups were off task and having inappropriate conversations. She was also concerned that we keep having the same conversations and i haven't seemed to be growing. I told her how i've been struggling with not being happy and that i think it's the age group. She told me that i'm a very good teacher and that if she could she would want me to teach her kids and she doesn't tell everyone that. That is just not the age group for me. She gave me some good advice and told me that she would help me in any way she could. So i asked her if i would be asked back next year, on my cover of my evaluation its' marked unsatisfactory. She said that she did not know if i would be asked back but as soon as she hears anything she would let me know. They are getting rid of 2 biology teachers, so i'm probably going to be one of them. I really don't see how they could keep me. My parents don't want me to leave there until i have something lined up because they hear horrier stories of the job shortage. If i come home in the evening and some evenings i hope that something catastrophic happens in the world so that i don't have to go back to work in the morning, i don't think that's the place for me.
This reminds me of a dream i had during the summer, it was that i was fired. At first i was sad then i had this overwhelming feeling of relief. I kinda have that feeling of relief again because i don't have to go back there next summer, i can find something that will make me happy, hopefully. So now i'm looking for a middle school science teaching job. I found two in seneca and i'm going to send my information to them at the end of the week when i have all my letters in a row. Wish me luck!
- Mood: blah
I broke up a fight yesterday in my class. (i'm really proud about this) It was at the end of class they had gotten new seats (apparently certain students should not sit by each other..now i know) I was was walking around the classroom and i turn around and see one kid punching on another kid I yelled the kid doing the punching's name and pull him off the other kid. I then stand in between them. Then the punching kid looks at me and asks me if he can sit down. (what?!)The other kid that got punch is proceeding to bleed everywhere. I go and call security to come and get the fighting students. I was shaking but very happy that i controlled the situation.
The principal observed me today. He saw my one and only favorite class so that was good. I think it went well. Who knows what he was thinking though.
I keep forgetting things this week. On Tuesday i forgot the dvd i wanted to show in class at home in my laptop, i had to run around like crazy finding and burning another copy and getting it all done with 15min to spare before class started. Today i left my purse at home.
I"ve been so busy and tired that i have not shaved my legs since January 19th. In order for me to shave my legs i like to take a bathe and that has been too much effort for me lately. I hope i find time soon.
Nana is home from the hospital. Still do not know what is in her lung. They did 2 biopsy on her and they both came back inconclusive. She is having a 4 hour total body scan on my b-day Saturday. It's strange my mom and Nana never really had a good relationship because Nana verbally abused my mom (called her names and told her she was worthless and such) My mom always hoped for her to be nice and treat her like she did everyone else and i guess she got her wish cause ever since she's been in the hospital she has been really nice and no guilt trips and mean behavior. My mom has said why now, why not earlier, i just hope she stays nice like this for mom's sake.
Earlier in the month i was depressed about getting older. I thought at this age i would have kids and i'm worried about getting too old to have kids. I'm starting to feel the need that i just may want one of those. (one preferably like Megan my youngest niece) Now with my career and crap the way it is, i'm not sure when it will happen.
I want a haircut but don't know when i will have time for one.
I want to do something for my b-day on Saturday but my house is a mess and i won't have time to clean it the way i would want it to look for more then a few people to come over. I wonder if that makes any sense?
Ten minutes before i turn into a pumpkin. I should go shower so i can collapse into bed, so freakin tired.
- Mood:
exhausted - Music:C'mon Collapse, On
